other than that, id rather not be awake today, horoscopes are all proving to be very very true and insightful, im feeling confused, im feeling sad...all of these thngs. i should heed their warnings. todays was pretty amazing. i do feel like im running around in circles in my mind, im feeling the same things and im angry about the same things, i feel trapped and i feel like im also doing it to myself, the issue is i cant distinguish between what are controllable and what are sub-consious reactions to things, and its making things difficult to sort out with my thinking mind, its hard to pick, and im making bad decisions. i hate this part of my life, im very very confused. there always is an easy way out and its always an option, its just a matter of when i choose to use up those cards, one day i wont have any left, and i cant train myself to think that way. i can get myself to think pretty much anything.
yoga class makes me want that amy's vegan pizza i had last week, but i know id only just eat the whole thing again.
man,
today stinks.
id like to not have school anymore, id work the rest of my life every day, i dont care, just get me out of here. no more algebra, no more biology, id rather live in a cardboard box.


one cup to keep me up, one cup to keep me warm. why two? i like my little teacups more than my parents big fatties.
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